Mental Health Monday: The Real Deal
These past two weeks have been nothing short of awful. That’s the easiest way I can describe it. One of the biggest indicators? I actually picked up one of my 4 journals and started scribbling as if it was going to save my life. While I think journaling is great and I advise it to other people, I find it hard to be consistent. Something REALLLLY has to be going on when I find the urgent need to journal. So it was me, my journal, and God. It felt so good to write stuff down. Without getting into too much detail about what happened (soley so I don’t have to relive it) here are some things that were going down:
School and finals week were kicking my A$$.
My job was awful and I was having internal conflict about deciding how and when I wanted to quit.
I have to retake a class and I quit my job. The fact that I have to retake a class really took a toll on me. I’m talking about bawling my eyes out and crawling into fetal position. But I can honestly say that the tears only lasted for 10 min max. I knew I had to pull it together and get in contact with my school advisor. Moral of the story is that I’m okay now. I have a much better outlook on the situation and I know it happened for the best. With me having to retake the class and having to add another year to my program, I’m really going to take my time to make sure I’m doing my best. Being a counselor is the most important thing to me right now and it needs my undivided attention and passion.
As far as a job, I’m never looking back LOL. They suck, working for them was torture, and that’s the end of that. No but really, working, school, and internship was just too much for me. I’m not used to working while being in school so I’m really not sure what possessed me to think I could do it now. This isn’t undergrad anymore, it’s the real deal. I’m finally doing what I’m passionate about and anything that gets in the way of that needs to get CUT.
My mental health needs a fine tune up after these past couple of weeks. It was compromised for many reasons but what’s important now is getting in charge of it. Being in grad school for counseling, I know mental and emotional breakdowns are bound to happen again...it’s a heavy field. I like to be private about a lot so starting this series will be outside of my comfort zone, but I think I’ll find some good by sharing some tips and stories around mental health, including my own.